Her and Him

I never thought I’d find myself in this position
Where feeling my own breath would be an impossible mission Where looking in the
mirror reflected the darkest vision
How did I find myself laying in a corner of this kitchen
I thought it was just a transition
I thought that I could handle all the pressure the traditions
I thought I could shut up and listen
If I was going through this is cos
God must have a reason
But every night
Or whenever I’m in his sight
Suddenly then I transform into the dirtiest of wives
Turns off the light
But Im burnt by his eyes
His breath dragged all over me as he forces open my thighs
And when he smiles
Oh how I hate when he smiles
He knows that I can’t take it still he pins me down and tries
No where to hide
Question how I’m still alive I know he’ll never change but im still hoping that
he might
Argh you’re hurting me, get off
Ok ok I’ll do it, but please don’t hurt me
And don’t make noise shh
What Im feeling
He doesn’t care bout what im speaking
When he got home the children were in bed already sleeping
Same nightmare every fucking evening
He can’t seem to hear the oldest one that’s in is his cradle weeping
I find the strength to push myself out of bed
I start running to their room did I miscalculate the length Im not sure if I
will make it but I know its worth another another attempt
Him
I’ve only got one thing on my mind
Her sweet angelic face is waiting for me inside
She’s my queen, believe me she’s the apple of my eye
But she brings out all the devils that took me so long to hide
Oh I swear I don’t want to hurt her
I wanna make her love me, always thought
I could convert her
Shes changed, looks at me physically but can’t see further
Shes cheating, maybe with her friends or one of her coworkers
But every night
Whenever she’s in my sight I thank
God for giving me the most prettiest of all wives
Turn off the lights
My imagination flies
Kissing all over her neck as I force open her thighs
The way she cries
Pushes, kicks me and denies
Her attitude, her strength it can give me butterflies
And then I smile Just to show her that she’s mine
I love her and I hate her, she pisses me off but she’s sublime
I love her but she ought to love me back
She was no one, I gave her everything that she ever had
Where she thinks shes going
I never meant to do her bad, but why she gotta be like that why she gotta make
me mad
She tries to run away again
She’s not worthy of a man
If she only listened, if she followed my demands
Guess its too late to say sorry ive got blood all on my hands