save me

I don’t think there’s anybody left to save me
Barricaded in my head and I can’t break free
I fight myself on ways to stop feeling so lazy
I say goodnight to rising suns but it don’t phase me
I been up and I been down I feel em both
I got nothing left to stop myself from sinking, I don’t float
I been craving something more, why can’t i back what I promote
Am I creating value, nope, and I been running low on hope
So let’s pretend that I control whats in my skin
Like I’m falling back in line without a care of tearing thin
If I hit the hay I’ll meet tomorrow with an honest grin
But I’m too terrified of shaking so I’ll stay awake in sin
Let me breathe, capture air, I exhale and don’t ask why
Because I know that any breath could be my last before I die
Maybe one day I’ll be fine and I can write just what I like
But until then imma ground myself in fear before I cry
And I don’t know if I’ll survive the static in my sleep
But imma go until I find the undertow that pulls me deep
Imma let it take me out and bring my body to the sea
And when it rots, imma drop and watch my bones become the reef
And I don’t think that anyone can save me
Been barricaded in my head and I can’t break free
I fight myself on ways to stop feeling so lazy
I say goodnight to rising suns but it don’t phase me