Noise

I know right now
It’s looking rather scrawny out
Still, look at them pretty skies
From spring to fall no end in sight
No need for me to stay inside
The construct of myself, for my soul
A contract, I’ve signed to keep it all
To keep it all-
Inside of me I stop to breath
When the smile you make collides with me
Making up silent indications
Gets me aching way too much
Can’t get past it, without breaking
Without making a mess of myself
I know right now
It’s looking rather scrawny out
Today seems fucked
I’m not gonna lie, this whole things messed up
I walk through seasons of this planet
Looking for reasons, for my plannings
I meet my demons, to find my gladness
Malice and Sadness, are doxing my address
Without a reason seemingly fucking me over
Taking all closure and leaving me sober
With diehard pessimistic ways encased
By made up thinking, that I’m doing ok
I know right now it’s looking rather scrawny out
Tho trust me, it’s really not
Since it’s all gotta work somehow, life’s not gonna stop
No need for reasons, to make it all worthwile
I get that you’re sad 'bout always keeping alone, I-
Am certain this treason to be found on my side
Is nothing to fear I think I’ll somehow make it