Pushit

I saw the gap again today
While you were begging me to stay
Begging not to make me enter
If I do we both may disappear
I will choke until I swallow...
Choke this infant here before me
What is this but my reflection?
Who am I to judge and strike you down?
But you're
Pushing and shoving me
Pushing and shoving me
Pushing and shoving me
Pushing and shoving me
Pushing and shoving me
But you didn't think
Push it on me
You still love me
You still love me
Rest your trigger on my finger
Bang my head upon the fault line
Take care not to make me enter
Because if I do we both may disappear
But you're pushing me
Pushing and shoving me
Pushing and shoving me
Pushing and shoving me
Pushing and shoving me
Pushing and shoving me
Shoving me. Push it on me
Slipping back into the gap again
I'm alive when you're touching me
Alive when you're shoving me down
But I'd trade it all
For just a little bit of
Peace of mind
Put me somewhere I don't want to be
Seeing someplace I don't want to see
Never want to see that place again
Saw that gap again today
As you were begging me to stay
Managed to push myself away
And you, as well
If, when I say I may fade like a sigh if I stay
You minimize my movement anyway
I must persuade you another way
There's no love in fear
Staring down the hole again
Hands upon my back again
Survival is my only friend
Terrified of what may come
Just remember I will always love you
Even as I tear your fucking throat away
But it will end no other way