Some Women

I think there are some women who should not have children
And I suppose my mother was one of them
I don’t think she was an evil person sure she tried sometimes
I just don’t think she cared all that much
She had a life her own she was young there were men
Sometimes she came home eight or nine or ten
From work stopped off at the bar for a beer or two
Sometimes it was later it’s tv and cereal hey what you gonna do
What you gonna do who you gonna blame
Seen it early enough it’s my life it’s the same
If I sit here screaming or dreaming or pissed
This or that I might have missed
Come a time it’s only me got to answer for who I am or what
And maybe I’m a little like her Gonna have to fight my way clear
Some of this confusion I’ll do better than she did and if I ever decide to have
a kid
I’ll make damn sure I’ll make damn sure I really wanted that kid
I think there are moments we understand as more than the promise and the
circumstance
She never had a plan and she loved to dance and every chance she took some
romance
She learned it on the radio living it hard and ready to go
My mom she’s a world of fun 20 years into her cups
And my mama she don’t care if the sun comes up
And mama I appreciate what you came to give just a little late some things I’ll
never understand
You just seemed so nervous all the time somehow removed talking to you
sometimes like
Screaming underwater like it’s all slow motion you ain’t listening you ain’t
there
And I just can’t wait cause I don’t ever feel like I fit in anywhere
And I dreamed last night I saw a tear in your eye I was all dressed up and I
looked like you
My lips were pink and my eyes were blue but I just couldn’t cry I didn’t know
what to do
I was locked in the mirror like a lie come true you maybe seen now what it all
come down to
I looked so damn hot mama I looked just like you struck a pose I suppose now
everybody knows
Everybody knows mama everybody knows
What you gonna do who you gonna blame seen it early enough it’s my life it’s
the same
If I sit here screaming or dreaming or pissed this or that I might have missed
Come a time it’s only me got to answer for who or what I am
And maybe I’m a little like her Gonna have to fight my way clear
Some of this confusion I’ll do better than she did and if I ever decide to have
that kid
I’ll make damn sure I’ll make damn sure I’ll make damn sure I really wanted
that kid