Kill Myself

I’m gonna clean the house
I’m gonna fix the fence
In my final hours
I’m gonna tie up these loose ends
I wont leave a note
For anyone to find
Tomorrow they’ll know
What I’ve done here tonight
The drastic steps I’m takin'
Are just an act of desperation
I knew no one would miss me So what the hell
I fought and lied I drank too much
Hurt every one I ever touched
Just how much I hurt you is hard to tell
This is not some kind of cry for help
Just good bye I wish you well
Because I love you
I’m gonna kill myself
Now who is that
In my easy chair
Now wait a minute
That’s the old me sittin’there
And I thank God
The devil in me died
I stand before you now
A man changed and alive
The drastic steps I’m takin'
Are just an act of desperation
I knew no one would miss me So what the hell
I fought and lied I drank too much
Hurt every one I ever touched
Just how much I hurt you is hard to tell
This is not some kind of cry for help
Just good bye I wish you well
Because I love you
I have to kill myself
Gonna clean the house
Gonna fix that fence
In my final hours I’m gonna tie up these loose ends