Don't Wonder

I, I don’t wonder why
I feel like nothing really matters
We’re all just trying to find
Something in life to be blinded by
Lately I’ve been thinking about
The places that I find myself in, there’s way too many
Still sinning to the point that I hurt myself
For the first time in my life by losing you
Just had the realest reality check
Never thought I’d be the type to be blind to the facts
And all I had to do was look the other way
I’m trying not to feel the pain for my mistakes
Because my nephew and my niece are growing up without a father
Got an uncle and an auntie who forever lost their daughter
Yeah and once we think we cool, cancer hit the fucking fam again
Mama looking sad, uncle David back in jail again
Kinshasa on the phone, can you transfer more money for the burial
Little Madeleine was sick and lost the fight, was one year old
That’s what I get from looking into my own scars
And reflecting on my life
Can you tell me what it’s worth?
You tell me what it’s worth
I know we all carry pain
Pain we gotta keep in balance
'Cause we all got dreams and hopes we share with the ones we love
To make the most out of each day
'Cause there’s no reasoning with life
And that’s exactly why
I, I don’t wonder why
I feel like nothing really matters
We’re all just trying to find
Something in life to be blinded by
I, I don’t wonder why
I feel like nothing really matters
We’re all just trying to find
Something in life to be blinded by