Once or Twice

ONCE OR TWICE
I’m in my bedroom, I feel like a wanker.
Watching all the videos of you.
I lost my mind but I am not an abuser.
Trying to laugh but I don’t feel too good.
I fucked up once or twice, now come on.
Don’t be so cold as ice, yeh come on.
The bottle is empty, but I try to remember.
The look on your face when you were ready to scream.
Making it faster and taking it harder.
But now it just feels like a stupid fucking dream.
I fucked up once or twice, now come on.
Don’t be so cold as ice, yeh come on.
I guess I’ll pay the price, so come on.
I’m down but jesus Christ, I’m alright.
I guess I’m weaker than I had imagined.
Cracking so easy but it weren’t up to me.
Drownin my sorrows, takin my life away.
Now I’ve lost everything, how can this be.
I fucked up once or twice, now come on.
Don’t be so cold as ice, yeh come on.
I guess I’ll pay the price, so come on.
I’m down but jesus Christ, I’m alright.