Those Blackouts

Destroying the very merit
for the sake of which I’m alive.
It’s got nothing to do trying to escape.
I go for the bottle to hide.
All the hours I’ve spent on lying.
Pulling teeth from the dead and the dying.
My whole life is a mockery.
Suicide with beautiful luxury.
(Those blackouts are a curse and a blessing.)
What did I do
(Those blackouts are a curse and a blessing.)
to you?
Just the simple burden of breathing,
forcing me down on my knees.
Ironic how life on paper
could look like an option for me.
All the hours I’ve spent on lying.
Pulling teeth from the dead and the dying.
My whole life is a mockery.
Suicide with beautiful luxury.
(Those blackouts are a curse and a blessing.)
What did I do
(Those blackouts are a curse and a blessing.)
to you?
(Those blackouts are a curse and a blessing.)
What did I do?
(Those blackouts are a curse and a blessing.)
I wish I knew.
Just what did I do to you?
I wish I knew.
All the hours I’ve spent on lying.
Pulling teeth from the dead and the dying.
My whole life is a mockery.
Suicide with beautiful luxury.
All the hours I’ve spent on lying (all the hours I’ve spent).
By pulling teeth from the dead and the dying (pulling teeth from the dead).
My whole life is a mockery.
Suicide with beautiful luxury.
(Those blackouts are a curse and a blessing.)
What did I do
(Those blackouts are a curse and a blessing.)
to you?
(Those blackouts are a curse and a blessing.)
Come on, what did I do?
(Those blackouts are a curse and a blessing.)
How I wish I knew.