Cope

Oh, my god, it’s like I’d never existed
That’s why I fall apart when I see that you’re moving
In a different direction, like I’m lost from your heart
I guess you couldn’t ignore it, like I’m of no importance
I mean nothing at all
Forget I battled the distance and years of resistance
I guess there’s nothing too small to forget, even if it’s one-sided
I’m no good to you dead, but I may as well be, now I’m a goner
And in fact, I made my bed on rock bottom
With these battles, I bottled to pretend like I learned to move on
And oh, I think it’s time I get some peace in my mind
Through all these days and these nights
Spent trying harder to convince you to speak
Blame it on the timing 'cause we’re both here, right now
Unless you really want out
Then tell me «Stop it» 'cause I’m wasting your time
I know I carved it all in stone from the start
I didn’t mean to put my dreams before the doubt in your heart
I hoped I meant a lot more to you than walking away
'Cause there’s some truth left to say
But either way I swear I’m learning to cope
I hope you realize that it was perfect timing
There’s no one else you can blame
For that mistake that you made when you pushed me away
You can’t keep blaming everything on your state
(I'm not that far away)
I guess there’s nothing too small to ignore, even if it’s one-sided
I’m no good to you dead, but I may as well be, now I’m a goner
And in fact, I made my bed on rock bottom
With these battles, I bottled to pretend like I learned to move on
And oh, I think it’s time I get some closure to feel
On my attempt to be real
With the girl who’d rather leave me than try
Don’t push it on the future where we’re both here, right now
Unless you really want out
Then tell me «Stop it» 'cause I’m wasting your time
And I know I put you through one hell of a change
I didn’t mean to put my dreams before the plans you had made
I hoped I meant a lot more to you than walking away
But there’s some truth left to say
But either way I swear I’m learning to cope