A Shade of My Former Self

Take another breath,
it’s all over.
Why can’t you just accept
it’s all in your head.
Please someone tell me how to live,
because the thought is taking over me.
Oh what a night to remember, stricken down with emptiness.
So unfamiliar, so overwhelming.
Please someone tell me how to live,
because the thought is taking over me.
Wait for me, I’m not done denying.
Wait for me, I’ve lit the spark so help me.
Extinguish the fire,
extinguish the fire that burns within me.
What remains of me is a shade of my former self, colourless.
This will be the longest road you walk on.
Take another breath,
it’s all over.
Why can’t you just accept
it’s all in your head.
Please someone tell me how to live,
because the thought is taking over me.
Please someone tell me how to live in this God forsaken place.
Cast a line and reel in gently.
Slowly, I take as I please.
I want it all, just take it, take it, as you please.
Take it, take it, as you please.
This is the fear, this is the fear, I have to live with.
All the mistakes, all of the pain that dwells within me.
Can you forgive, can you forgive my selfishness.
Give me your sorrows, we’ll carry them. All back home, all back home.
Tell me your worries and let them go. All back home, back home again.