Restless

The sky seemed far away
I tried to make sense of a thoughtless day
No disappointments
Stale words always know what to say
I took the train out to Olympia
I realized once again how big the world was
I had forgotten how to breathe
We sat on the mountain and it seemed like I could touch the sky
No distractions and I thought about the word freedom
And what it really meant for me
Because seems sometimes I don’t feel so free
When I’m stuck here in the city
I fell asleep on the side of the mountain
And I awoke to a peaceful morning
I took a deep breath as I stared across the canyon
Exhausted, hard concrete screaming my name
Another year for me of worthless destiny
I’d been waiting for the perfect time to scream
And so I scream
While holding on and waiting for a better dream
I’ve let so many slip through my fingers
As I watch the clock fade into the morning
So I smoked another cigarette
As the sun rose over the city
But it didn’t shine on me
Sleep has never made me happy
What’s left for me, another lonely winter night
Street lights and a sleepless dream
Dismantled words of indifference fall like rain
Immersed into reality
We all search for inspiration
Sometimes it’s really hard to find
But I found it on the mountain
Now I’m back and I feel like I never left
Sometimes I don’t know where to go
A friend once told me to follow my dreams
And lately I’ve been asking myself
What does it mean to be free?
Restless, someone tell me what to believe
I waste my days on an old fantasy
That’s not the way it used to be