Fluoxetine

Here’s my companion
Ageless and old, hovering behind
It’s in the house, but
In some other room that I never find
Too numb to see through
Its simple disguise
Something is moving
Another dark thought that it will surround
It might mean release, but
I’m miles away when it comes around
Combing through pieces
I don’t recognize
And all that I want
Is to leave all the big questions open
So take all my unknowns
And buy all that somehow could be owned
With patents on my mixed emotions
What gets to me is
What if it’s all I’ll ever be again?
A dose of defenses
A daily dissolve of anything within
A chemical façade for anything
I might devise
And all that I want
Is to leave all the big questions open
So take all my unknowns
And patent all my mixed emotions
And all that I want
Is to somehow feel something forever
But all I know is that I don’t
I can’t even write what I’m feeling
I can’t even write what I’m feeling
I can’t even write I’m not feeling