Numb

I’ve been in a daze
It seems like days that I’ve been waiting
For this dream to pass
It goes so fast
It seems nothing lasts
I think I’ve lost something
Stuck here with these people wide awake
The crush of bodies in one space
I feel your hot breath on my tongue
I wonder where you’ve gone
In the ever turning spinning wheel
Of people, places lies I feel
The restless beat of the sleepless night to come
I just want to be numb
I just want to be numb
Hopeless these three years like smoking gears
I go from place to place
Just aimlessly and half asleep
Like I’m falling alone in some endless breach
I don’t know where I am
I don’t know what I’ve done
I just go over and over it, again and again and again
I can’t sleep at night
I can’t breathe
But If I drink tonight I’ll get you off my mind
In the ever present pit
I feel I’m turning on some spinning wheel
Of faces and the scenes I see
And none of it seems real to me
Just the bleary haze of the morning still to come
I just want to be numb