Pain Relief Part 2

My heart was always made of gold it was never brass
Even back when it was cold I would change the weather fast
I’m tryna protect my soul but I can’t forget my past
I still done a couple things that I’m not proud of
There’s still things you shouldn’t know and you should never ask
We don’t need no negativity around us
Ask about us we’ve already been to hell and back
I start reminiscing every time I shell a track
I remember constantly hustling tryna sell a pack
Couple haters tried to break me cos their jealous twats
Fuck everybody that’s snaked me one day I’ll get em back
Until then I’m fully focused on progression
I’ll release all my aggression in a studio session
On my life I’m never snitching but this is my confession
I spent most of my life bitching now I’m learning my lesson
I gained a little bit of wisdom, turned to a blessing
That’s why it’s realness that I give them every verse that I’m prepping
I’ve gotta kill this
I’m using my words as a weapon
If you feel this, you still will this in one third of a second
Being paron tryna build isn’t further than heaven
I been climbing up the hills and working twenty-four seven
They wanna drag you down and they will if you stop and you let em
I’m not backing down cos once I’m at the top I’ll forget em
They are a myth
I’m forgetting that they even exist
But people take the piss so I’m putting some weed in a spliff
The world is starving cos of greed and it’s an even abyss
So if you wear your heart on your sleeve it will bleed on your wrist
These days I’m starting to see who is real or a prick
I swear to god its hard to be any realer than this
I don’t need no silly whore feeling my dick
I’ll just ignore it if I do not see the reason in it
I had to disappear so I could breathe for a bit
Cos when I looked in the mirror I saw a demon in it
I was blind I felt like I couldn’t see for a bit
Losing my mind I swear I didn’t feel like me for a bit
It’s fucking bad I didn’t even have a reason to live
It’s fucking sad I didn’t even get to speak to my kid
I wasn’t running to the bag because I was sleeping in it
So every time I was in a lab I was screaming in it
Cos I was dying inside, I was crying inside
I was weak, I knew there was a line inside
I can’t sleep, I swear I’ve been trying, I’ve tried
I don’t want to speak to anybody on the opp side
Their in a mood
I’m focused on my own ting
Their still acting like some yutes I’m on a grown ting
They want me six feet deep or in the ocean
Get back on my feet I’m on a sylvester stallone ting
And to be honest I don’t know how I’ve been coping
Maybe it’s because of all the weed that I’ve been smoking
Maybe it’s because of all these beats that keep me zoning
You’ll only achieve it if you believe it and start hoping
That’s why I keep going because I need it I’m not joking
I swear you’ll be amazed the day you see it like a dolphin
I was going crazy then I changed now I’m evolving
When somebody breaks out of the change you can’t fault em
Yeah, Trust Me
Tantskii, 2020
Rest in peace to my son every time
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