Sidelines

I’ve been on the sidelines rotting away
Been looking for a place anywhere I could stay
Been tryna make a move they ain’t fall into place
Now I’m wastin away, yea I’m wastin away
Sometimes I hate myself, cuz I don’t like the way I live
And all the time that I’ve been spending with my enemy
And it feels like I’m going insane
Too much shit on my mind, so little to say
I don’t like to talk girl you should know that
No one by my side now and I’m hurt bad
Screaming in silence, but no one heard that
You know it’s true, but that’s not on you
Should I drift away, to the land of the dead and
Throw away, all the things that we had
Cuz I don’t wanna liv, but I’m too scared of dying
I don’t wanna be her, but they told me keep trying
Should I give this another try
Will they give me another lie
I used to be so full of life, but then I lost it
Living such a shitty life it’s exhausting
Guess I’ll just hope for better days, better days, better days