Blue Study

Somewhere between my tongue and cheek
I can feel the hands on me
Pulls me in so we are face to face
I don’t wanna see it, I don’t wanna see
Hold my head up, can’t avert my eyes
Spots and rats on me, I don’t wanna see
Claw the ground up, get me out of this
Never wanted this, never needed this
And you left me and I left you
And you left me and I left you too
Chair is stained and I can’t stay awake
Bring forth evidence to keep me sane
I can’t keep this riddle locked inside
Seven ways to keep my secrets tied
Can’t believe this, I belong in chains
Separated, it was me and something else
Now I’m numbing, get me out of this
Never wanted this, never needed this
And you left me and I left you
And you left me oh, but then I left you and
And you left me and I left you
And you left me and I left you too
Arms stretched out, giving thanks to pain
Spotlight looking down, I’m ashamed
Kneeling with my forehead to the ground
I can’t help but flinch before I’m found
I don’t need you! Can’t you see behind?
Doesn’t matter now, doesn’t matter anymore
Maybe made me, get me out of this
Never wanted this, never needed this
And you left me and I left you
And you left me and motherfucker then I left you
And you left me and I left you
And you left me and I left you too
Safe! I just wanna be safe
Safe! I just wanna be safe
Safe! Don’t you want to be safe?
Safe! Why can’t you let me be safe?