Sorry-Grateful

You’re always sorry
You’re always grateful
You’re always wondering what might have been
Then she walks in
And still you’re sorry
And still you’re grateful
And still you wonder
And still you doubt
And she goes out
Everything’s different
Nothing’s changed
Only maybe slightly rearranged
You’re sorry-grateful
Regretful-happy
Why look for answers
Where none occur?
You always are
What you always were
Which has nothing to do with
All to do with her
You’re always sorry
You’re always grateful
You hold her thinking
I’m not alone
You’re still alone
You don’t live for her
You do live with her
You’re scared she’s starting
To drift away—
And scared she’ll stay
Good things get better
Bad get worse
Wait, I think I meant that in reverse
You’re sorry-grateful
Regretful-happy
Why look for answers
Where none occur
(You'll always be
What you always were
Which has nothing to do with
All to do with her) x2
Nothing to do with
All to do with her