Veil

It’s by design then
I’m ignoring the worst of the signs
I’m always desperate to apologize
But I abandon it all
I abandon it all
I abandon it all
Abandon it all
I keep it fed
With some last words, it was a theatrical exit
Clearly staying too close, too attached
Is further than its necessary purpose
(This is dead weight
With some last words
With my head straight)
Before I bend
Yes, headfirst now from a safe distance
Bystander—double standard
But of course, I’m staying out of this one
(View from safety
And I’ll always
Fall back safely)
So next time I get the chance
I’ll make sure to let you know
The moment I’ve accomplished something
What an opening line
I recoil when I play it back in my mind
Catch me mothering pride
And enjoying every second
Of attention that I’ve gathered up
My conscience has told me
That I shouldn’t sleep without four alarms
So when I’m gripped at 30
My body will have done more than fertilize
Either way
As I’m losing consciousness
And I stare off from the top of the hill
Of my parents' house
Guilt will be the last thing that sends me down
That soft (soft), soft (soft), soft (soft) slope
I keep it fed
With some last words, it was a theatrical exit
Clearly staying too close, too attached
Is further than its necessary purpose
(This is dead weight
With some last words
With my head straight)
Before I bend
Yes, headfirst now from a safe distance
Bystander—double standard
But of course, I’m staying out of this one
(View from safety
And I’ll always
Fall back safely)
I guess I’m dead weight