This Past Was Only Mine

I’m turning my back on this blind world
I’m armed with greed and a cradle of love
And this hand will kill what’s left of the man in me
Life experience can’t teach you anything
If you can’t repress your desire to make it
To make it intensely like you
This past was only mine
This past was only mine
This past was
Was never mine
This past was only mine
This past was only mine
This past was
Was never mine
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Looking for approval to feel alive
Looking for conflict to feel almost alive
The misery of surviving only because of them
Where’s the life I live? I deceived hope
I gave up on redeeming myself, this is just
An echo of a wasted defeated existence
This past was only mine
This past was only mine
This past was
Was never mine
This past was only mine
This past was only mine
This past was
Was never mine
This past was only mine
This past was only mine
This past was
Was never mine
La-la-la
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