Better Off

Sometimes I think I’m better off eating dirt
Because I’d rather choke to death than wind up really hurt
And I see something creepy creeping up inside your skirt
But I’m not gonna try to get it
And I’m not right inside my head
It’s just like everybody said
Sometimes I think I’m better off taking pills
Because I found out feeling there’s nothing I like to feel
And the numbness you describe isn’t any less real
Than the pain I’m paying off now
You’re catching up on missed cigarettes from sleeping in too late
And I’m hoping I’m lucky enough to forget how they taste
And I was alive at the start of time and I’ll be here in the end
When the planes crash down on the fucking town
And you realize I’m your friend
Sometimes I think I’m better off jerking off
Find a one bedroom for myself and that old dirty cloth
Because I’m shaking when they make me turn my head and cough
But fuck, I’d be shaking anyway
But that’s alright, I’ll just go to bed
You’re catching up on missed cigarettes from sleeping in too late
And I’m hoping I’m lucky enough to forget how they taste
And I was alive at the start of time and I’ll be here in the end
When the planes crash down on the fucking town
And you realize I’m your friend