Ugly

Was I just a bother? If I went away I couldn’t stop the thoughts of you wanting
another;
My heart it feels toxic my clothes are all fake and this smell is a product
I’m all caught up in life I want to feel something
Oh, was I annoying? your emotions are weak, and your mind is my toy
Fucking with people it brings me joy
Just because I am evil, Confusing all your strategies, fathoming my fallacies
Convincing you strategic thought, all your life has been your soul
But don’t you know that when we’re old?
I feel so ugly, my rose has thorns; tired of assumptions
Would you have the gumption and tell it to my face for me to go away?
Come play thse games and strategiz; make you see these sparkles in my eyes
Yet I am a monster, worse than a mobster
Feeding off your kindness; it’s a drug
Your highness I’m an alien, the mother fuck
I’m out of luck, because my facial features have all but turned to sludge
I’m at the cusp of suicide
And no one cares because I’m ugly
My heart is all torn it makes me feel nothing
My anger is something, but where does it go? I’m right back in nothing
Was I a bother?
When you went away I can’t stop the thoughts of you wanting another
My heart it feels toxic my clothes are all fake and the smell is a product
Caught up in life and I need to feel something
Oh, was I annoying, your emotions are weak, and your mind is my toy
Fucking with people brings me joy
Just because I am evil, Confusing all your strategies, fathoming my fallacies
Convincing you strategic thought, all your life has been your soul,
have you thinking when we’re old
We could be together, forever, I want you and I want you but I feel so ugly
We could be so perfect but I am disgusting