Reflections

I’m stressed out, depressed and I’m traumatized at the same time
Going back and forth, expressing how I’m feeling through my rhymes
Believe it or not, many people don’t wanna see me shine
They rather see me having nothing, not even having my life
Sometimes I feel like I should quit and let the devil smile
Let them all to be happy cause I know that is what they want
Maybe if I do that, I’ll probably have a peace of mind
But then, I still have to think about the people in my life
I don’t wanna hurt my mother, I don’t wanna hurt my granny too
But then, if I’m hurt then they’re hurting too
If I keep on living like this, to quit is what I’ll have do
So, they’ll have to forgive, they’ll have to understand me too
I know some people are listening and they think I’ll be a loser if I quit
They say a winner never quits
Well, I love my life, I’m too young to lose my shit
Never be ready to live in other towns and all that shit
I’m never feeling safe whenever I am not at home
Because the devil is following everywhere I go
It’s coming through many people and they can all fill the dome
So, I gotta take the Bible and them keys, lock the doors, stay at home
It’s very crazy being a black person
Because others don’t build you, they destroy a person
A black person don’t wanna work
They just wanna use somebody’s strength, and taking everything they have
I really hate a lazy person, they don’t wanna do they own work
They don’t wanna stand up and have balls and be the men
They steal from other people and complain about the government
This shit is fucked up, what about the blood and sweat
That our mothers shed? This life has got me stressed
Only if there was a university in Zastron
I would’ve not got out of town to see them demons
Although I know the devil is there in my hometown too
At least I’m used to being around my hometown, bro
It seems like I’m not welcome in them others towns at all though
I’m not saying Zastron is safe
Even if I am at home, I still feel the pain, nothing will ever change
I’m still searching for better days
Although I know the Earth ain’t got a safer place
To have God on my side, I will have to pray
The devil and its followers are predators, and I am still a prey
I’m fighting with them every day
Go ahead and say that I’m weak for expressing my life on this song
If I’m keeping quiet, man this shit will get me destroyed
I should be talking to a preacher
But I don’t trust anybody else, I hope you see that
It’s very crazy, man, these troubles that I’m going through
I’m very young, why should I be living like I’m 42?
To be living like I got kids, I’m living life that is stressful
Feeling like this life is never beautiful
It’s very crazy, man, these troubles that I’m going through
I’m very young, should be living like I’m 42?
To be living like I got kids, I’m living life that is stressful
Feeling like this life is never beautiful