First Row In Hell

Today was the very first day that I felt alone that I felt it slipping away
Today was the very first time I toyed with the idea of throwing it all away
Today I felt a scorching flame, kneel down and obey misery
My ego was thrown in my face
This is the first row in hell
I can not feel, not see the pain
Why can´t it stop? What´s going on?
Today I was told that I was weak
My only goal was to stay far away from pain
Why can´t it stop? What´s going on?
All is lost now