Never

In my room
In the lamp light
In the shades of violence
Or ecstacy
How could I know?
How could I not know…
The way that you felt
Or the way it could be
.I'm still screaming but nobody hears me
.turn up the volume till it drowns out my brain
.the winds are searing my head is clearing
.and I will never feel the same again
Are you still out there
Exactly the same
As you were with me
As we never could be again
Sometimes it was good
So very worthwhile
Your precious smile
That said believe
I would stare at the floor
You’d say to my face
All that was love
Hate has now replaced
I couldn’t think
Now that I know what this was leading to
Of all the things that broke or left me
I cannot replace you