Sick Heart River

Leaning against what’s next to me
Have no fear, won’t see
Will it eat me up or bring me down
I’ll gradually make up my mind
My mind
Revolution within myself
I’m puzzled, still overwhelmed
By the stories that you would tell
They always send me something
Revolution within myself
Within myself
Let me give my best
I won’t depend
This time I will make
Another plan to find
What’s left and nothing less
Still I won’t tread
I’ll find my own way
To make it all worthwhile
Call, call on me darkness
Wait, wait on me now
Won’t you say
Say that I’m sorry
'Cause I won’t wait
I’ve found another form
It’s breeding life
It must have been there
The whole time when I was dead
'Cause I was pledged to emptiness
And now I’ve let myself
To see all the things
I just didn’t expect
Still I remember
Still I repent
I’d walk through the never
Despite my descent
Reborn, acknowledging the part
Of me that once was lost
I have repressed, too many years
My utopia was within my grasp
Doomed in absentia
Left to be sentenced
Still rising to cherish
All the things I have left
Call, call on me darkness
Wait, wait on me now
Won’t you say
Say that I’m sorry
'Cause I won’t wait