Waiting to Start

I’m bored and it’s eating me up inside
How many times I tried to ignore
The urge to stay here and hide until I run out of time
I wonder why it all seems so hard to me living healthily and sober
The tobacco leaf before I fall asleep
In a dark room on a sunny afternoon
Dreams aren’t enough
Wanna take my world
Make it something beautiful
But I’m stuck in a rut
Today is the ten year anniversary
And I’ve found that it’s just not working out for me
I wonder why the clouds have never left the sky
I don’t know why it still plagues me
It remains a mystery
In a dark room on a sunny afternoon
Dreams aren’t enough
Wanna take my world
Make it something beautiful
When I’m stuck in a rut
And life’s a block away passing by me every day
Waiting to start
Every now and then I think I’m getting close again
Just for the day