Diluted

I’m cold, I’m ugly
I’m always confused by everything
I can stare into a thousand eyes
But every smile hides a bold-faced lie
It itches, it seethes, it festers and breathes
My heros are dead, they died in my head
Thin out the herd, squeeze out the pain
Something inside me has opened up again
Thoughts of me exemplified
All the little flaws I have denied
Forget today, forget whatever happened
Everyday I see a little more of overall deficiencies
I’m nothing short of being one complete catastrophe
What the hell — did I — do to deserve — all of this?
I save all the bullets from ignorant minds
Your insults get stuck in my teeth as they grind
Way past good taste, on our way to bad omens
I decrease, while my symptoms increase
God what the fuck is wrong
You act like you knew it all along
Your timing s*cks, your silence is a blessing
All I ever wanted out of you was
Something you could never be
Now take a real good look at
What you’ve f*cking done to me
What the hell — did I — do to deserve — all of this?
What the hell — did I — do to deserve — all of this?
Gimme any reason why I’d need you, boy
Gimme any reason not to f*ck you up
Gimme any reason why I’d need you, bitch
Gimme any reason not to f*ck you up
I see you in me
I keep my scars from prying eyes
Incapable of ever knowing why
Somebody breathe, I’ve got to have an answer
Why am I so fascinated by
Bigger pictures, better things
But I don’t care what you think
You’ll never understand me
What the hell — did I — do to deserve — all of this?
What the hell — did I — do to deserve — all of this?
F*ck! le man, hard step, no fate