Halo of Flies

All you needed was somebody with a dream,
A fool to crucify or to put upon a pedestal.
Only dead fish float with the stream —
Compared with you I seem like an extra-terrestrial.
I’m not your Robin Hood or Peter Pan,
I won’t play Jesus Christ — Santa Claus.
I’ll never pass for a superman —
I’m just an effect trying to find a cause.
Tell me who am I, what am I and why am I here.
Is it because I’m flesh and blood
That creature comforts feel so good?
I give my body all it needs —
It sleeps and eats and shits and breeds.
And if I keep my feelings stum,
Hard luck — bibo ergo sum.
Just trying to do the best I can
Is a giant leap for this small man.
All you needed was somebody with a dream,
A fool to crucify or to put upon a pedestal.
Only dead fish float with the stream —
Compared with you I seem like an extra-terrestrial.
You say that life is a miracle —
I don’t believe one word.
Forgive me for being so cynical —
From down here you all look absurd.
So are you happy now we all feel the same?
Martyrs to the cause — boredom level nearing terminal.
You’re afraid to go against the grain,
Next to you I feel like a shining intellectual.
James T. Kirk — Albert Einstein,
Sitting safe aboard the Enterprise.
If you’re out there send me a sign —
I need somebody to sympathise with.
Tell me who am I, what am I and why am I here.
Must I succumb to every urge —
First feast and fast (then binge and purge).
My spirit’s strong — my flesh is weak,
I laugh and cry and scream and speak.
And sometimes when i feel confused,
I walk a path I did not choose.
Watch my life on video —
A private homemade horror show.
All you needed was somebody with a dream,
A fool to crucify or to put upon a pedestal.
Only dead fish float with the stream —
Compared with you I seem like an extra-terrestrial.
So are you happy now we all feel the same?
Martyrs to the cause — boredom level nearing terminal.
You’re afraid to go against the grain,
Next to you I feel like a shining intellectual.
You say that life is a miracle —
I don’t believe one word.
Forgive me for being so cynical —
From down here you all look absurd.