Building A Ruin

My life is a sentence that carries no pardon
I can’t put you out of my misery now
So stunned by the beauty of this madhouse garden
I’ve taken my chances then lost them somehow
This body’s a temple, a shoddy construction
I’m digging my grave while boring the well
I’m paving a path to my own self-destruction
I won’t be content 'til I see me in Hell
No I won’t be content 'til I see me in Hell
I’ve looked back on my time, the names and the faces
A child long ago that I nearly forgot
And felt like someone who’d just stepped on the place
Where the last stair should have been, then found it was not
Life’s just a process of delamination
Stripping your hopes, dissecting them gently
I’ve opened my heart and to my consternation
When I peered inside it was small, dark and empty
My friends turn to me
Wonder what I am doing
Drinking and smoking like somebody died
I said: «Leave me alone
I’m just building a ruin
The spirits are sunken so the wreckage must rise»
(I'm building a ruin)
I’m building a ruin
(I ruin a building)
I ruin a building
(I'm building a ruin)
My bridges are burned out
(I ruin a building)
My tunnels are filled in
It’s all a game I believe
The longer you play it, the harder it gets
The most I can hope to achieve now’s my breakfast
A priest with a blindfold and last cigarette
My friends turn to me
Wonder what I am doing
Drinking and smoking like somebody died
I said: «Leave me alone
I’m just building a ruin
The spirits are sunken so the wreckage must rise»
I won’t be content 'til I see me in Hell