At the Lantern

I’m living in my mama’s den
Working night shifts now and then
As a bar-back at The Lantern
Friday night I’m taking change
Down to the coin star to exchange
For pocket money at the tavern
The conversation’s dull and dry
But I’m still here and getting by
On the same old routine pattern
Always drunk
Aways high
One more promise
Another lie
I don’t want to pretend anymore
I’m getting older every day
Still waiting for the sea to change
For a chance to make things better
Chasing that elusive dream
I had when I was seventeen
When my future was unfettered
I can’t bear
To let it go
I wanna leave
With something to show
I don’t want to pretend anymore
I’m still holding on to something beautiful
I can’t explain to you or anyone why
I’m searching for a sign of something meaningful
To make this all worthwhile
I don’t want to pretend anymore