Precursor

I used to believe in something and something believed in me
But now I see I forced myself cause believing in nothing is scary
Now there’s nothing left to lose and we’ve been wearied and refused
I am an unbelieving wreck. Will you please lift me by my neck?
How do I turn this into something I believe
When it’s something I’ve been told and something I’ve been taught?
How do I turn this into something that I need?
I’ll be lavishly controlled and be someone that I’m not
Make me believe. Make me believe. Make me believe. Make me believe.
Joy and suffering, good and evil, breathing and growing and life
It’s all a fluke, means nothing to me, and maybe nothing is all right
To give up my life to hold on to hope, to forfeit all of me
To believe that something must be true and that truth will set us free
How do I turn this into something I believe
When it’s something I’ve been told and something I’ve been taught?
How do I turn this into something that I need?
I’ll be lavishly controlled and be someone that I’m not
Believing in love, believing in hope, surrendering all of my will
Believing in nothing is scary, believing in something is scarier still
Believing in love, believing in hope, surrendering all of my will
Believing in nothing is scary, believing in something is scarier still