Black Lungs

After sundown, awake at night
The disappointment and disarray
Carved onto my skin
Blood in my mouth
Colorblind and unease
Time just stopped around me
And nothing ever since felt so real
What you see
Is something I cannot see
Somewhere I keep my hands closed
My head down
With my arms wrapped around me
When the shadows cover my tiered eyes
I see you
And the blackness fills my lungs
Another time
Made up minds
On different sides
With your hand against my spine
I can see the sadness in your eys
But I can’t feel it
And I don’t want to