What I've Become

Another night I’m all alone
Peeling my skin down to the bone
My eyes becoming bloodshot from the hands around my throat
I regurgitate myself
So I can eat it up again
I’ve got an appetite for self abuse
The story never ends
Sometimes I build myself up
So I can tear me down again
I never thought I’d get this low
I hate what I’ve become
Pushing myself until I break
Until my body starts to shake
A game to see just how much I can take
Before I fade away
I trace my scars
To remind me it’s real
Becoming numb
I cannot feel
Sometimes I build myself up
So I can tear me down again
I never thought I’d get this low
I hate what I’ve become
Breaking down again
Breaking me
This weight is like an avalanche
Breaking down again
Crushing me
The weight feels like an avalanche
Sometimes I build myself up
So I can tear me down again
I never thought I’d get this low
I hate what I’ve become
Running from the pain
God, am I too late?
Oh, come and open up my eyes
I give it all to You tonight
Starting to wear thin
Make me whole again
These chains have kept me here too long
I’m coming home where I belong!