Denial

Today my heart is beating out of habit
Today I’m trying not to be so manic
So dramatic, like everybody panic
Take every cannon, aim it at the ground & just shoot the planet
I saw a cop murder a man while I just watched
Imagine what they’re doing while I’m not
& I am so cut off that I don’t really see the half of it
It makes you feel ashamed to be a part of it
It makes you want to scream & start an argument
It makes you wanna bring it all down & just start again
It makes you wanna take what you got bottled up
& stuff a sock in it like they said
But instead you just spark it up & toss a Molotov for every Nazi cop on your
fucking block
To watch it all erupt, it makes you wanna flip every squad car in the parking
lot
Or it makes you want to play the deer hunter waiting for the buck to stop,
silently, it makes you want to cry
It makes me wonder why a man would kneel upon another man’s neck
Not to mention someone that he swore he would protect
For seven minutes straight, while he begged you for his breath
& you don’t even flinch while you sentence him to death
No threat, unarmed, face down, cuffed
Gave you everything he had but that was not enough
Oh, you judge, jury & executioner?
Oh, you judge during the execution? (huh?)
I hardly comment on a lot of stuff
I bottle it up, worried like I am not really smart enough
Who gives a fuck what I think?
What does it all matter?
I’m the «hoverboard rapper»
Go ask somebody more — blacker
While neo Nazis rally like the third Reich
While a child is run down & killed over a dirt bike
It’s like, that ain’t my lane to go & react to it
Can’t I just be funny? Keep making money off black music?
Can’t I just stay comfortable writing a bunch of dick jokes?
In my building while they kill black children outside my window?
A cop murders a black man in front of a crowd
Now imagine what happens when nobody is around
Someone needs to call it out
But I don’t, ill just wait here for the fall out
Denial