First Breath, Last Breath

I watched you bleed out
I watched your lungs cave
I saw that worst thing that I’ve ever seen
As I watched you slip away from me
And our daughter’s first breath is the last one you will ever take
And I don’t think I can make it on my own
Remember they said you’d have to sacrifice I know
But I was not prepared to watch the life drain from your soul
I have never felt so crushed, the sadness buried in my bones
How the hell am I supposed to raise a daughter on my own
I turn to stone when I look in your eyes
I lost the only reason that I’m alive
I don’t know if any words will do (will do)
All that I know is I’m so in love with you
There was nothing that they could do
After three days of labor it’s a miracle that anyone survived
I’m alive, but I’m dead inside
And I’m supposed to raise a child with a smile now
I used to wonder why people put bullets in their brains
Now it seems like the only way to stop this pain
How the fuck am I supposed to wake up every day
And pretend that I love her as much as I miss your face
I turn to stone when I look in your eyes
I lost the only reason that I’m alive
I don’t know if any words will do (will do)
All that I know is I’m so in love with you
I watched you bleed out
I watched your lungs cave
I watched you slip away from me
And I don’t think that I’ll ever be okay