Montauk

Once in a while when I daydream
I think about people who aren’t thinking of me
Time ripped us apart and sent us our own ways
Now I am stuck with only the memories
And a strong desire for my past to be forgotten
Some people affect us so strongly that they
Leave an impression that’s much to hard to erase
And we want to escape from our own thoughts that make
Us conjure up the times we’ve tried to bury away
It’s these feelings we hate They result in the pain
That is too much for a single person to bare
So I’ll do what I can but I don’t think I’ll stay
As you can probably guess I’m dealing with a few things
How long 'til I can leave
This stupid state of being?
I feel like I hate everything
I wish it’d go away
I’m still looking for a solution
Something that would make a change
But no matter what I try it won’t leave
Someone please come fix me
I’m not trying to live my life this way
Constantly too afraid
That I’m not strong enough to deal with pain
From the wounds that despite attempts never seem to heal
And over time I pick at them
I really wish I’d just forget
But as it stands they’re all still there
The constant cause of my despair