Idiot

Been chewed up!
Ooh I don’t want your affection.
I’m screwed up!
Been down that hole before.
I could’ve!
Made quite an impression.
And I would’ve!
Made you need me more.
And what if I thought of everything?
Then what good would you be to me?
A boot around my flat tire…
An albatross around my neck making it hard to breathe.
Caught myself off guard!
The demands are stacking up!
Now I’m out of time and my load won’t get lighter.
So I smile and I nod!
Make believe that I’m somewhere else!
Anywhere but here.
I’ve been lied to!
I can taste it in the air.
You tried to!
Slip another one by me.
I smiled when!
I told you I didn’t care.
And you cried when!
You told me «How do you dare?!»
And now that I fucked up everything.
Wonder what tomorrow will bring.
I’m gonna resent you in the end.
I’m gonna bounce back when you break and I bend.