Every Night

Sometimes people make use of false guilts
So, they find an excuse for closing their eyes to their very real guilts
I’m not feeling human anymore
Half connected all the time
Each night I document the things I’ve done
The pointless points I’ve made for stupid reasons
Every night, every night
Every night I’m always the same
You’re pounding on my brain
Tonight, every night
I lie down clenching up my teeth
Trying to fall asleep
I’ve sat and smoked a billion cigarettes
And wished to hell that you were here
My stained and calloused fingers hold a pen
Scratching apologies to you
Too late, too little
Every night, every night
Every night I pay off my debts
Trust me, I don’t forget
Tonight and every night
I will analyze everything
And make myself count the ways
I fucked up today