You Are the Substance That I Can't Live Without

I never promised that I would be honest, but I try
I never made out that things would be great and that you’d never cry
But you’re pulling me under, the fire and thunder, in your eyes
You’ve struck me dumb see, I am completely petrified
And it feels like nothing
It feels like nothing
It feels like nothing, but
You are the substance that I can’t live without
I think it’s symbolic all this blood and vomit we’re tied up in
Oh, still we speak those, loving echoes and fantasize
But now I’m enraptured, truly captured, by the awful truth
I wanna shoot you up, but it’s just never enough, so I’m through