Deadname

Let’s start off with the things that I said yesterday
Oh wait, I said nothing but my hands are tied now
And my stomach hurts and my fingers burn
And you wonder why the tables turn
Oh, I could try to feel it now but I’ve overthought it enough
That now I feel nothing
And there’s a burden that I’ve found trying to justify my thoughts
Still I feel nothing
Do you want to come over?
I’ll save you the burden of an invitation
«Will you know when I’m older?»
Oh, just lemme sign my resignation
Can you recall the moments you took me for pay?
And I was frozen 'cause you had the world today
Tell me I’m valuable cause I can’t breathe
And I’m so dutiful that I won’t leave
Oh, I could try to feel it now but I’ve overthought it enough
That now I feel nothing
And there’s a burden that I’ve found trying to justify my thoughts
Still I feel nothing
I’ve got some secrets to tell you but they’re all lies
I hope you’re still the same to spread them, I hope you try
Cause what could be more poetic than you living a lie?
Like we’re living now in this forgotten silence
I hope you tell yourself that this is not deliberate but I
Actually hope that you construe
I’d say I don’t want to fight you but I think that’d be lying too
And honestly I have so many reasons
And I think I just wanna win tonight
So do you want to, do you want to, do you want to, do you want to
Do you want to come over?
I’ll save you the burden of an invitation
«Will you know when I’m older?»
Oh, just lemme sign my resignation
Just lemme sign my resignation