A Question

Stories unfolding but I don’t know what they mean
Conclusions like a blade to the abdomen
I’m watching life pour out and wondering how this is going to end
I want to know
I start to sink with lessons that I’ve learned
The cover is worn and the corners are burned
The spine is still strong
But who knows for how long
A story exposed hoping something was earned
I wand to know where this is going
I want to know if I’ve seen the worst
I want to know what it all meant
Feet don’t fail me now
I want to know my worth
Pain is the plot
But the ending is unclear
Pages that cut deep with weight I can’t bear
I’m writing «why?»
But the words are just smeared
I laugh till my eyes burn and flood these pages with tears
The question is what quest is this?