Everything

I was thinking I should talk about us
I know we’ve got a past, there’s nobody like us
First name Rocky & last name Phase
No scratch that, first name Crazy my last name Ex
Lately I’ve been moving a lot, I heard you’ve been asking my last known address
I know we lost touch, I’ve been working a lot
I figured if time’s really money then am hoping that the universe pays interest,
for every little second I invest…
& I really want to stop but I can’t quit
Feeling like killing everybody that I hang with
Let’s talk about music and everything it’s taken from me
My thoughts get loud, don’t touch me am autistic
I got another person who stays in my head & he is drawn to the violence
I want the peace, I want the silence, you should be quiet!
It’s never been easy to be me, that’s the excuses I give me
When I want to visit, then you say you’re busy
A young Mr. Gatsby, I did it for Daisy but I cannot run from my destiny
I’m insecurity driven & that must be something you don’t want to know but let’s
talk about that…
I’ve got a jealousy trait; I fell in love with you quickly
I feel like you don’t know the real me…
So I had to leave you before you can leave me…
They should have told me that irony might be irrelevant
Can you show me your scar? Shout out to Simba
I wanted the pride but it came with the prejudice
& that’s how I met my Elizabeth…
I Finally breathe
I want to be free
I had a dream
I wanted to win
You told me to give, Everything
If I decided to leave, would you cry over me?
Baby I’m fade up, (fade up fade up)
Straight up
I wish I was better (better better)
Better
Baby I’m fade up, (fade up fade up)
Straight up
I wish I was better (better better)
Better…
I’m never close with my dad but we never talk about that
I’m never close with my brothers; I feel like they counting on me when it
matters
I wish I can say I’m in touch with my manners but mostly I’m keeping the bad
ones…
Half of my relatives never approve of my lifestyle, they set the standards
But I never needed approval, they never understand that…
Am guessing you knew that, it exactly explains why I called you that night when
I felt suicidal…
I told you some stuff & you took advantage of that
My need to confess might have been what you needed
I need to forget that I wanted the memory back…
Ask how am doing am managing
I’m on display like a manikin
Did you think I’d be able to handle pain?
Is you really like that, I’m just wondering?
I’m getting high off some benylin
& half of the rush is adrenaline
I tell myself that am over it
Acceptance is strength that you’re never going to hurt me again but the feeling
is foreign
Ignorance might have been bliss for a while but you put me in a box then I
started recording…
Buried alive, I put myself in a coffin
My generation is on the come up to self-destruction, I wish we was given
instructions to life
Cuz I really need it, it hurts to exist and I hate it
A lot of my friends in their 20s have self-medicated
I wanted the world but it came with some damages
Remember that…
I Finally breathe
I want to be free
I had a dream
I wanted to win
You told me to give, Everything
If I decided to leave, would you cry over me?
Baby I’m fade up, (fade up fade up)
Straight up
I wish I was better (better better)
Better
Baby I’m fade up, (fade up fade up)
Straight up
I wish I was better (better better)
Better…