Remission

Living out in the deep I am everything I’m not meant to be.
Convince myself I suffered well.
This is comfortably numb separate from you.
I’ve let these hurdles turn to stone, tied to my neck and I’m alone cause I
built my pride into a throne but it’s all just pulling me under.
I tried my hardest to break free;
Just get my head above and breathe.
I lost my bearings in the undertow.
I can’t stop them,
They keep coming.
I try to fight but they’re still pulling and pulling.
With every stone I sink to the bottom.
I can’t stop them,
I’m barely hanging on.
Pull me out of the cycle.
I’ll disappear,
I’ll disappear.
This repetition is endless.
Inhale, relapse, repeat.
This is getting old.
I think my apathy is taking its toll on me.
Calm and composed but on the inside I’m losing control.
If you can calm the sea you can still the storm inside of me.
I was unprepared,
These crippled legs won’t get me anywhere.
Oh God,
Oh God I need you to carry me farther cause I’m still learning how to walk on
water.
I can’t stop them,
They keep coming.
I try to fight but they’re still pulling and pulling.
With every stone I sink to the bottom.
I can’t stop them,
I’m barely hanging on.
I’m barely here.
I’ve seen this all before,
I know exactly how it ends.
There’s no ocean floor,
You sink until you learn to swim.
I can’t stop them,
They keep coming.
Pants.
I try to fight but they’re still pulling and pulling.
With every stone I sink to the bottom.
I can’t stop them,
I’m barely hanging on.
I’m barely here.