Twin Lakes

I open my eyes up
There’s somebody sleepin' in the bed next to mine
But I don’t recognize them
Couple nurses comin' in the room to check on me
And maybe shed light
Tell me where I am
My legs are too long for this twin size bed
She said I need rest
Time to take my meds
It’s gonna be a long thirty days ahead
I went for my phone
But it’s gone
She said the staff searched everything I own
They confiscate my razor
My cologne
They made me sign a waiver
I can’t call home
So now I’m praying to the light on the fire alarm
Thinkin' to myself «Look what I’ve become»?
The tears on my face taste like alcohol
I’m crawled up in a ball
Fighting my withdrawals
I was starin' in the mirror
And the man I saw
Was appalled at the wrong I’ve done
And it’s never been as clear as it is right now
I was powerless all life long
I’m ready for recovery
Tryin' on to break these chains
Ready for recovery
Tryin' to escape Twin Lakes
It’s six AM
And I don’t got an appetite for breakfast
I can’t make friends
'Cause I don’t think that I know who I am yet
I flick my cigarette ash, I’m scared of talkin' group
A girl across the room is sayin' how she got abused
Younger kids are laughin' like it’s funny, I am not amused
I need to mind my business, that’s the type of attitude I’m trying to lose
Told my counselor, I think that I fell out of love of livin'
I drink Crown by the gallon jug, not an ounce of fuck is givin'
Buzzed without the fun, now I’m just a violent drunk
And If I don’t want to get sober, then it’s all over
I just hope my higher power shows forgiveness
Victim of this drug abusive life I live
Lose my mind and then another suicide attempt
So I turn my willing life over to you to drive again
I’m just hopin' I got time to undo the wrong I did
I was starin' in the mirror and the man I saw
Was appalled at the wrong I’ve done
And it’s never been as clear as it is right now
I was powerless all life long
I’m ready for recovery
Tryin' on to break these chains
Ready for recovery
Tryin' to escape Twin Lakes
It’s never too late