I Need to Leave

I need to break the silence
But I can’t speak
My heart is wrapped around my throat
Somebody start the fire
I need a drink
Then we can slide into our roles
I’m loveless
It must be so
How could I live with this on me
I need to start the violence
I need to hear
The screaming horror of my words
And there’s no peace
For what I’ve done
It doesn’t seem
As If I won
And honestly
I’m a broken dove
Who cannot bleed
Who’s not enough
I’m an atrocious liar
I need to leave
Why can’t we leave ourselves
It doesn’t feel
Like anyone
It doesn’t seem
As if won
And honestly
I’m a fallen dove
Who cannot feel
Who’s not enough
How safe, how safe with anybody
Hands, only hands