First Time Fighting

Heavy guilt has me on my knees
Wasting all opportunities
Left my life overseas
Happy home is what I need
(What I need)
What if who I am is not who I want to be?
Try to understand
What it means to be me
It’s not like your perfect dreams
You say what you always mean
I won’t just wait and see what will become of me
You say it’s over but it never is
We fought a thousand battles but it never ends