Old Ways

My ambition too lit, might take me over the edge
I look all around me, I see no one but myself
Good Book say it’s bad for men to always be alone
But good books tell me «fuck em, you can get it on your own.»
Heh
So here I am typing these lyrics, no pens
And no pads, just a notepad
Middle of a coffee joint up in the airport
Nigga on his grizzy headed to the west coast
Young man, young man
Do you know where your soul stands?
Are you including God in ya plans?
You doing everything because He told you, or doing anything for they approval,
son do not let them control you. (Control you)
If YHWH is FOR you, who can be AGAINST you? Right?
Not the time for Sunday School on a flight?
Even demons gunning for your soul in the fight
Don’t lose it from trying to make the world see ya light, I…
I failed… then I tried…
I wanna live… before I die…
So many people… that I killed…
And I willed… my pride…
To go die… but I think I sent away my self-esteem with it
The days when I lose outweigh the days I am winning
Man it’s summer but a nigga freezing up in this winter, man
No more… No more…
Oh Lord… oh lord…
I don’t wanna go back to my old ways… old ways…(yeah)…old ways (old
ways)(x2)
Good habits always hard to form
Bad habits always die slow
And man, I feel it creeping on me, I know
It’s hard to give up validation when you been so…
Screwed over… stepped on. Overlooked. You put your…
Best shit… forward…But niggas kept it moving, man they ignored you
Yeah they knew that you was brilliant, they knowed it
That’s why they called you up to help em make they own shit
And you was killing that pride, so you did it for em
No payment for the service, they just taking your work
For granted. It’s getting to the point I couldn’t stand it. So I stand up,
had to readjust my standards
Pissing off a handlful of people, I’m a savage, like oh well
You done got this far, you can do it on ya own my nigga
You popping in the streets, what you need me for, nigga?
I am on my own hustle, you just need me for a minute
But when you take off, you haven’t called me in a minute!
Not even to check me, how I’m doin?!
Well guess what? I finally started moving!
And when I get where I’m going, God’s gonna put me in a place where I’m the
teacher, you the student AGAIN
Class in session
Don’t be late, you won’t be saved by the bell
If I wasn’t capable of being the bigger person
I would make sure you get charged for the billing
But I can’t…no…I don’t…
I don’t wanna go back to my old ways… old ways…(yeah)…old ways (old
ways)(x2)