Obituary's Son

Obituary’s son
Will anyone miss me when I’m gone?
Will anyone mourn Obituary’s son?
I’m in a glass house with no stones to throw
So I use my fists (so I use my fists)
Even blood itself has a home
So I kiss my wrists
You wouldn’t believe me if I told you what I’ve seen
No amount of water can wash these blood-soaked hands clean
(Oh!)
Sometimes I want to
(Sometimes I want to)
Sometimes I want to
(Sometimes I want to)
Sometimes…
I want to rid the earth of any semblance of me
Sometimes I want to
(Sometimes I want to)
Sometimes I want to
(Sometimes I want to)
Sometimes I want to disappear silently
I want to disappear
Let me disappear, let me disappear
I want to disappear
Let me disappear, let me disappear
I want to disappear
Let me disappear, let me disappear
I want to disappear
Let me disappear, let me disappear
Well, it hurts to laugh, and it hurts to cry
And it hurts to look another man in the eyes
And it hurts to live, oh God, but it hurts even worse to die
Sometimes I can’t believe I’m still alive
Will anyone miss me?
Will anyone mourn?
Will anyone miss me when I’m gone?
(I won’t be)
Another suicide, another life undone
(Obituary's son)
But I turn away the loaded gun
Another dance with death, another battle won
(Obituary's son)
But I’m still alive, so take your hands off me
But I’m still alive and kicking, so take your hands off me
So take your hands off me
I’m so glad you’re home
Please, talk to me
Talk to us
Are you… okay?
Can you talk?
Will you talk?
(I don’t want to talk right now)
I understand that
You can’t shut me out that way
You have to talk about it
You don’t have to (No, I don’t want to talk about it) lock me out
Not right now you don’t, I get that
But in order to have to talk about it
With me, or your friends, or Dad
What can I do?
(You don’t want to talk to me about it, I don’t want to hear about it)
Look, you can’t just uninvolve yourself that way
(Well he can’t scare us to death in the middle of the night when you guys go
pick him up
We thought you were dead)
That’s. that’s not what I wanted to get across right now
He’s alive
I want you to know that I’m here
(I know that you’re here)
I’ve always been there
(No only thing he does is work and you’re here every single day and he still
goes off and)
Okay, are you serious?
(Yes, I’m serious! You need to learn how to grow up and be a man!)
Okay
(You know, we help him out- we do everything for him but some of it- he — you
know, maybe this is a way to)
Stop
(We can start giving back)
Just stop
(You know, you guys contribute)
No, it’s not
(No)
You can’t
(I am not gonna have this conversation with you guys)
(Figure it out)
Okay, listen to me
You… you mean the world to me
I want you to feel that way about yourself
I love you
Dad, Mom, too
You just can’t talk about this
You can’t get that close to his emotions
(He has no idea how to do that)
I know, but I want to
I want you to know that I love you
And Dad loves you
Do you know that?
Do you know
(Yeah)
Without you, I can’t
I don’t wanna
I love you
(I love you too)