Runaway

Don’t get up
Sit down
Just relax
And be calm
When finally the pain is gone
I can convince myself there’s nothing wrong
That this conspiracy consists of no one else
Beside myself
Why try suicide when I sabotage my mind all the time?
I cry, blur my eyes, say it will be fine but I lie
Why am I…
Turning away from what I should be
When all that I need has already come true?
I’ve run away
Trying to feed the courage to bleed
Excuses they seem the only escape to
Run away
Wash out the stink that clings to me
‘Cause people smell though they barely breathe
I’m standing poised against their angry sea
But I drown in my own mediocrity
How can I decide to stand against the tide
When all have died that tried?
Curled up in me room
Waiting for the signs of impending doom
Ka-boom
Now that I see just what I’m to be
To fulfill these dreams they’ve always deemed see through
I’ve run away
Trying to feed the courage to bleed
Excuses succeed to truths that entreat to
Run away
You say you want to change something do you?
Don’t want your world this way?
Then whatcha gonna do, do, do?
Wash out the stink that clings to me
‘Cause people smell though they barely breathe
I’m standing poised against their angry sea
But I drown in my own mediocrity
How can I decide to stand against the tide
When all have died that tried?
Curled up in me room
Waiting for the signs of impending doom
Ka-boom